Choosing the better part

I am going to be a better Mommy... I am a good mom I think but I want to be a better Mommy. You know the person that is the one you just sit and cuddle with and chat about anything... I think I am so worried about the kids getting dinner, the house and the bills and my calling that I forget to be a mommy.... Gonna make that happen!

Finding Footing

Positivity... I'm working on that...

I'm not quite sure where life is leading me right now, I am not sure if I should go for the ride and see where it takes me or need to be steering in another direction forcibly.... really unsure....

Jack Turned 2 and we had a party for him at the Park... HE loved his friends all getting together to be with him... HE was such a HAM at the table, whipping his head back and doing big belly laughs so that everyone would laugh at him... Jack is the most loving boy I have ever seen. He tells EVERYONE he loves them and trys to kiss them ALL on the lips... UMMMMMMM... If he hasn't said I love you to someone before they leave he gets quite up set... well by upset he puts on a sad face, droops his head and sulks for a min. or so. Sweetest boy ever.

Bailee is becoming more of a little girl every day. She is really coming into her emotions and learning how to deal with them. She only seems to want to talk to me about them which is a difficult task when I am the problem, but you know it is making me realize that some of these emotional outbursts may stem from me and I need to evaluate myself more and control more of my raw emotions and let them come out less frequently... so then she can learn by example hopefully!

I am also realizing that I need to make more effort to be a better friend... I have just sectioned myself off in my world and been trying to stay afloat, but maybe friends would make it more bearable to be float... I need to try more.

Go Go...

OKAY....

Found out there is a Temple trip today.... gonna make it happen.... hopefully!

The rope has ended....

Do you ever look back in your journal and figure out you haven't changed that much in 10 years.... I mean, you have, but you haven't.... So wierd!

I had a hard day yesterday... I am being obediant to something I was asked to do that I COMPLETELY disagree with.... and am having an EXTREMELY hard time with it, wondering if I should say something.

I really want to get to the temple, but I don't think that is understood... It has been 2 years now since I have approched my ward about it- said somwthing again a few weeks ago for the 3rd time- and still no go... really frustrated right now and kinda putting this out there for guidance... UGH!

Blessed by our blessed Blessings!

I love my cute family. We had fun Easter Egg hunting and the kids both held their own with no help from mom and dad.

Bailee Made Egg carton Flowers for her teachers and friends... she is quite crafty!

Just loving our sweet family!

On another note... found out Jack can't hear well... Said he hears like and old man underwater... Will get tubes and his adnoids scaped on April 9th... Little scared for my baby to go under the knife.... hope it helps!!!

Daughter of Decorating

IT is St. Patricks Day- Happy Green To everyone!- and I was dressing up my kids and I in our green attire. I asked Bailee what green she wanted to wearin her hair. She said her green flower clip and RAN to her bathroom to get it. After a few minuites I was wondering where she was and found her green flower clip on the sink (it had been hung up on her hair clip ribbon). I asked her if she needed help getting it in her hair. She Abruptly said NO! I am decorating my bathroom with that and choose another clip for her hair... At least our bathroom won't get pinched today!

Have a great day!

I also love that my sweet babies always pick the flowers outside and bring me one every time they play outside. I have a sweet family!

BLAST!!!

2 Snickers and a yogurt into my day.... SO need to eat healthy tonight! DAMN YOU FREE SNICKERS!!!!