At Work... Can't Focus... so Let's Blog....
Totally done with work... my kids lives feel like they are zooming by and I sometimes feel like a bystander... I Want to have the emotional energy to handle the kids God has given me and work takes so much out of me... I don't know how you tell a boss of 5 years that you are throwing away his investment in you to stay at home with your family plus can we make it with out my income?!?!?!?.... I feel so stuck but my family come first... I really need to get the guts to leave....
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This is pretty much where I'm at in my life right now. I've kind of put off having kids because it never felt like it was the right time. I mean, if they would have come I would have made time, but I've never aggressively pursued In Vitro or anything like that because it just didn't feel like I should. I realized recently that there will never be a right time, and if I don't get to work on it, there won't be a chance for too much longer. I've been teaching at my school for 6 years. In that time I've had (by my estimates) about 700 babies pass through my life. It's going to be so hard and scary to leave, but I think next year is my last year working here.
You are amazing to make that kind of life change. It is so scary to chart a new course. I keep wondering... what happens if something happens to Ben... I need to stay in the workforce to keep my skills so I could support my family... Is that really a reason to miss out on what I have now... am I letting the Lord bless my life or am I living in fear of whether or not we can make it, or I'll have marketable skills or what ever... just hard when you are moving up and successful just to walk away... so happy you shared that with me... just feel really alone in this... thank you!
Oh Mel don't feel alone. I totally get where you are coming from. I was the one supporting Nate and I while we were in school. It is hard to live off of one income but it is do able. I know it is scary but it will be so worth it. Your kids will love having you home. I threatened my kids with getting a job the other day and the older two were sad that they would not have me home. You can always get another job nut you can never get the time back.
You will be blessed for putting your family first. It won't likely be easy and it might not be in ways you expect but you definitely will be blessed. Hope the transition goes as smoothly as possible.
You are definitely NOT alone. Now days, the opportunities, the money, and the feelings of success are just so hard to walk away from. I don't know if I can swing it, but I'm going to try and step back a little at a time. Like next year or the year after cutting back to like 20 hours. Baby steps, Mel! You are strong and amazing!
Big hugs to you in all you do.
“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. Christopher Robin to Pooh”
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