It's Official!

So Ben has been "Officially out of work" now for a month- although he hasn't actually worked since November 2nd- yeah try explaining all that to unemployment. This is a real trial of my faith. We have decided that he needs to go back to school. He is really not happy doing what he is doing... need to find a happier existance! For the meantime, I am workign everyday and missing my kids... It has made me realize that I have been blessed to be at home with them more than many people, including Ben.

For now I am just praying that the kids get accepted into CHIP or Medicad so at least they are covered through this down time. That application has been in for 2 months now- MAN THEY ARE SLOW! I just want to know my family will be alright and for now... I can only pray and hope and do as much leg work as possible to get a job... I really to micromanage our family, I have learned that through all of this and I am learning to let go (not much but starting)...

I have lost 5 lbs so far this month- which was my goal for the month- so as long as I don't gain- heaven fobid- in the next 11 days... I will have actually accomplished a goal I set for myself. I ALWAYS seem to start things and NEVER finish... I don't want to be that person... so I am trying to change it... hopefully I have begun!

An Update!

Bailee had a WONDERFUL birthday... thank you to everyone that pitched in!!! We focused on getting her dress up clothes for her birthday to broaden her imaginative play. This is her cat outfit Shasta found... TOO CUTE!!!

She is now also OFFICIALLY potty trained... and we thought the day would never come! An accident now and again but all in all DONE!!! She even woke up in the middle of the night the other night and stumbled out of her room looking for the potty... nothing like sleep walking pottying!!!!

Jack is getting HUGE... and he is actually interested in toys now! He will be 5 months tomorrow! Man the time is really flying with #2... It took forever for Bailee to get this old and now here we are!

Ben is still looking for a Job... Any new Ideas?!?... but I think he has found a new appreciation for being at home....

Me... I am working alot... well.... not currently... i'm on a "break"... my computer internet time is my break time... Just trying to keep the Family afloat... been doing it, but it is stressful being the only income... I have learned from the experience though... I am really trying to trust in God and Ben and I am finding that the stress isn't getting to me nearly as much and I can't ask for more than that!!!! I actually had a really great experience. I was talking to the Bishop about tithing and I committed to paying my tithing (I have never been good at this!) and I was really worried because 10% of my income... 10% less $ for keeping our family afloat... but I committed to it and just a short time later I got an email from my Boss that said... You are great I gave you a 10% raise on this check!!! Even my boss' wording said 10%... God really is looking out for us and does no the intents of our hearts and when we turn to him... he is always there... that experience has helped me this whole time of trial because I know he loves my family!

Oh and one more thing... Biggest loser starts TONIGHT! I am so addicted! (great segway!)

2 days in a row!!!!

I am looking for a better Blog layout.... any sugestions?!?!?! I want to be able to post pictures better!?!?!

Okay... so Literally here goes nothin....

So.. I'm no too good at this Blogging thing... But I am going to aim to do better... Ijust figured out my password again so he it goes! Ben and I are starting to cleanze our bodies and get healthier. We started on Jan. 1st (cliche, yes... but we are doing good) and are not eating Sugar or Flour. We are following the FAA food plan but not the program entirely, and I finding streanth in not eating as much... I am much more available to my self... or maybe I can say honest with what I am feeling. And I am excited to not be eatting ice cream (tradition) for the first time when I watch Biggest Loser... MY FAVORITE SHOW!!! I am totally going to win this year!!!! We are getting a computer at home so... hopefully posts will be more possible.. Post Pics soon!!!- New Hot bod coming soon....