Finding Footing

Positivity... I'm working on that...

I'm not quite sure where life is leading me right now, I am not sure if I should go for the ride and see where it takes me or need to be steering in another direction forcibly.... really unsure....

Jack Turned 2 and we had a party for him at the Park... HE loved his friends all getting together to be with him... HE was such a HAM at the table, whipping his head back and doing big belly laughs so that everyone would laugh at him... Jack is the most loving boy I have ever seen. He tells EVERYONE he loves them and trys to kiss them ALL on the lips... UMMMMMMM... If he hasn't said I love you to someone before they leave he gets quite up set... well by upset he puts on a sad face, droops his head and sulks for a min. or so. Sweetest boy ever.

Bailee is becoming more of a little girl every day. She is really coming into her emotions and learning how to deal with them. She only seems to want to talk to me about them which is a difficult task when I am the problem, but you know it is making me realize that some of these emotional outbursts may stem from me and I need to evaluate myself more and control more of my raw emotions and let them come out less frequently... so then she can learn by example hopefully!

I am also realizing that I need to make more effort to be a better friend... I have just sectioned myself off in my world and been trying to stay afloat, but maybe friends would make it more bearable to be float... I need to try more.

Go Go...